SHIT!

SHIT! Excuse my French but it's already May and I just realized, if everything goes as I planned, I will be leaving the city in 4-5 months!

It has dawned on me just how differently one feels-experiences-approaches a situation when knowing how it'll end.

(ie. relationships)

Although a part of me feels as though my NY experience is being cut short, this past weekend has only reinforced the feelings of excitement I feel about moving back home and what LA holds in store for me. I know I stressed out about feeling pressured by my parents (who know me well enough to not vocalize any of their wants)-their old age- their growing business (great opportunity for me) but, ultimately, I am the one making this decision to go after the career that I want, over having fun in NY- as amazing as the change of pace has been for me. Career wise- there is not much I would gain staying an additional year in comparison to how much I could do back @ Mine- and yes, feeling fulfilled at work is really important in this stage of my life. Especially when I'm already in the industry I'm most passionate about.

I think all this time I've been afraid of making the wrong decision, a decision I'll regret like prematurely moving back and missing out on the fun that a 24 year old should have. But there is no right or wrong decision. Biggest life lesson learned moving here. (Quitting my job and moving out here in 2 months...Who was that girl?!) Even if things didn't work out so well and I landed the jobs that I did, it still would have been a good decision.

Plus, no experience is solely based on one factor like location. That's absurd! It's more dependent on a multitude of factors: personality, attitude, zeal, effort and really it's really what you make of things in life. At a certain point, they just happen. I have the personality to seek things out if I want it anyways so if it's "fun" I'm looking for I think I'll be fine. Living out in DtLA with my sister is exciting in itself. I could go on and on but it'll get boring. I think I just vocalized the argument that has been running in my head the past few months. :)

All this was triggered by this weekend:

My sister, brother, Mom and Julie were in town for one of my sister's shows- FAME. I spent the weekend working and helping out. (Plus I had to show Julie "around"...err..party even though we had work 8 AM Sunday morning :) And much like all things satisfying, it left me exhausted, but it was really great to get a sneak peak of the "action" to come and see my sister in her element. Things are really taking off, picked up two more big accounts...Just really exciting. Also been featured (through our client's) in Lucky and WWD! I wanted to start a blog about the business and go more in depth about the industry but I don't think that's a smart move. (Should I? And keep names anonymous?)

What's more, we were both impressed by the little brother.

Anyways, when the day was over we headed over to Mercer Kitchen in Soho for an early Mother's Day/Sister's Bday celebration.

My brother has this thing- if he's not paying, he likes to order everything and anything.
Oh youngest child~

Ahhhhh...how I've missed the Kang's!